I was with him for so long..

It's hard to believe he's really gone.

I loved him with all my heart..

And when he broke up with me I fell apart.

I hated my life, I wanted to die..

All I did was sit around and cry.

I told him I still loved him, hoping he'd understand..

But he blew me off and didn't give a damn.

He talked to Britnee on the net one night..

And because of that talk, me and him had a fight.

I told him I hated him, that I wished he were dead..

If only I could take back those cruel things I said.

We didn't talk for a long time..

Then I went out with Mark and everything was fine.

I forgot all about Chris, and finally moved on..

We went out for two weeks, but then he was gone.

Once again I was left alone, not knowing what to do..

I didn't know how Mark could hurt me too?

It's been two months since I last talked to Chris..

And I have to be honest, I don't like all this.

Sometimes I think about the memories we shared..

I start to cry, wishing he still cared.

If only he knew what he ment to me..

I wish things would go back to the way they used to be.

All I'm left with now is a broken heart..

Without him, my world's falling apart.

I still care about him and he doesn't even know..

If only I could let my feelings for him show.

I finally talked to him the other night..

And everything seems to be alright.

I hope someday we can be more than just friends..

But if that doesn't happen, I don't want our friendship to end.

Last night you called me and I went with you..

I spent all night in your arms, it was too good to be true.

In 3 weeks I'll be moving, we'll be so far apart..

But I'll never forget you, you'll always be in my heart.

He was my first love, and there's no one I'll love the same way..

And I have faith that we'll be together again someday.

The first time I saw you, I knew you were the one for me..

I care about you, and that's the way it'll always be.

I love you now, I'll love you forever...

And someday soon.....I hope we'll be together.